a day to day recount of things seen, heard, spoken. nothing malicious, unless fully required. largely random musings, scintillatingly spiked with a copious amount of sarcasm, wit and inevitable blabber. or blubber if you may.

an extension to aboxofsix. Hopefully a revelation of more (well, only slightly) personal musings and anecdotes. Strictly subjective, not intended for wholesale consumption. Perhaps just a little prick to pry the issues that lie deep within.

adieu.

i think 'it' was a decision that shocked many. and inevitably people questioned why. for reasons good and bad.

i think it is because many people dont know me, or maybe they assume they know me.

i mean, granted i used to be the party girl like everyone else around. one who would skip class because of hangovers and such. gosh i cant believe im admitting all this. because yes, im most afraid of disappointing my family members. my mom and my dad. arent we all?

but the journey, every single thing i did in the past, shaped me to be who i am today. i feel as if ive been to the other side, shopped around abit and gradually realised it wasnt me. and i think because of those experiences, i dont feel as if im left out or as if im missing out on anything.

i look back at the memories of my old self... it was fun, so much fun, getting to know people, losing myself in things i didnt have to question... i miss the fun i had with my girls. it was so easy to get everyone down on wednesdays, thursdays at old haunts. skimpy clothes, booze, men, all aplenty.

lol lol. those were the darkest days of my life yet ironically i had so much 'fun' then.

but when i met my xlb (no surprises where!), i guess i found happiness contentment elsewhere. i found a different type of high. and it didnt have to come with loud music, or anything.

and slowly the inevitable process of human-metamorphosis took place. i, or rather we became the boring couple nobody wanted to hang out with. we lost so many friends, both him and i. but c'est la vie, i suppose.

to cut the long story short, im happy to say im happy where i am. sure there are many things i wish i hadnt done, people i wish i hadnt met/ fallen in puppy love with, places i shouldnt have gone to. but thats life eh?

we look forward. and i suppose thats most important.



*nudge nudge*

are you ready for it?